Wednesday, September 24, 2008

I refuse.

Yes thats my answer. I refuse.

Sunday, September 14, 2008

I lost everything in the post natal depression - Erma Bombeck

Sort of funny. Some parts are hilarious, some parts go completely over my head. Its not really a story or anything, just a collection of funnily written takes by a ostensibly hassled housewife.

Not bad to pass the time :)

Thursday, September 11, 2008


is inevitable isn't it?

I've seen myself change over the years. And I don't mean the change of black hair to white. I had principles. And then , as I started disliking them, I had others. Groucho would've been proud of me.

I had a phase of vegetarianism, which lasted a few years. 

I staunchly believed that all citizens are equal before the state and law, and then one fine evening, a spontaneous celebration left me wondering whether its really all that wrong to have prejudices. Don't the prejudices often grow out from statistics? 
And by the same logic, I once believed that while hiring/ interviewing people for office, there shouldn't be a prejudice in favor of 'good' colleges.  And then with the same statistics logic, I wondered if it is really so wrong to be prejudiced?  

Not so long ago, I was a developer starting out at the bottom, when everything the seniors did was flawed. We laughed at the forwards which showed all the funny contradictory things the higher ups did. And then the other day, I saw one of the old forwards, and realised that my sympathies had shifted almost entirely to the much maligned senior :)

And finally, what triggered this post was the distinct realisation in the past few weeks, that I have zero sympathy left with the Amitabh and Hema of Baaghban. You set aside the caricatures of the children/parents figures that the film portrays, and with what is left, I find myself fully rooting for the children.  Would I change again in another 20 years, if I have children of my own? I hope not. 

I will perhaps write in detail on all that I feel is wrong with our "culture" of "respecting" elders. For now, I just feel a sense of relief, that I've finally broken free from the load of bull we've always been fed in this area. 

Change is good. 

Sunday, September 07, 2008

Nemesis - Agatha Christie

I think I'll rapidly reread and reenjoy all of Poirot's cases again, thanks to the library! :) This was also devoured afresh. Must have read it a long time back, had pretty much forgotten the mystery.

Am also on the way to wading through the complete Perry Mason series which is good fun as well! Finished the case of the rolling bones.

Time to replenish reading material.

Wednesday, September 03, 2008


Had seen this one also some time back. I quite liked this movie. Not very many new ideas, but the usual standard arguments and counter arguments, put across reasonably well. Decent acting, and it keeps a good pace. It is after all partly a thriller, and so needs to keep the pace.

Doesn't do much of a job of explaining why the protagonist is picked for special treatment, and so leaves a few loose ends. I've heard its a copy of Cavite, would like to see that if I get a chance.

Monday, September 01, 2008


Had watched this a month back, but never got around to writing about it. I quite liked it. Some patchy acting by supporting cast( I wonder what was Brinda doing there? ) , and a rather non polished look, reminds you of those parallel cinema movies of the 70s-80s sometimes. Good acting by Konkona of course, ( I absolutely love her!) Overall a story well told, ( and of course we don't know what the government edited out)

And it is rather interesting isn't it, that its a part of our history thats so thoroughly buried and forgotten. It was quite real and close when it happened. I remember distinctly standing on the roof of the house we then stayed in, counting the burning houses all around. There were at least 5-6 visible from the relatively short 2nd storey roof. The policeman shooing us kids away and telling us there was a curfew on. The playtime discussions of whose father was keeping mid night vigils and how. Did I wonder then why my father didn't ?

I don't think I wondered then, or for many years after that. But watching Amu recently and the subsequent discussions with nn who feels quite strongly about the whole issue did result in some get me thinking about some things.

Yes it was a pretty blatant state instigated/organised/ condoned/ and finally forgotten violence. No justice was ever served, and every 5-6 years you still get a random feature on some show about the widows still fighting for justice. But the fact is that not only is the whole thing forgottten, its been forgotten with a vengeance. That this movie was buried is pertinent, because not only was it buried, it was buried so effectively that most of us didn't even hear about it. Which is somewhat different from the burial for all the other bombay/gujarat movies, whose banning evokes much coverage.

So the obvious question of why its forgotten, perhaps isn't that hard to answer. After all who benefits from raking it up ? Justice for all, as we all know, is just a platitude, there has to be some mileage somewhere for someone important for anything to happen, which isn't the case here.

The other question, more interesting perhaps is, what changed? What changed in such a way that it became a 0 mileage issue? 2 decades back, when you boarded a DTC bus, and the sign said - 'seat ke neeche bamb ho sakta hai' , you glanced down if you saw a guy with a turban and beard. That changed. It changed so completely, that I'd forgotten that people ever had such prejudices. However, nowadays, we'll glance down if we see a guy in white cap and beard.
I don't know the answer to that one - what changed.

And of course there's the third question, should it be this way? That history should be rewritten, and books, movies and plays banned because they may raise questions? What if the questions are long forgotten? Is it any different if the questions are asked everyday anyway?

I don't think it should be this way, I guess I'm still young enough to believe in the ideals about justice. But the cost benefit equations seem more complex than they once did.